Isolation: Foreword by Kit Carruthers

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Isolation basically leaves you two options: Become socially psychologically destroyed and way even deeper than that psychologically destroyed or become socially psychologically super powered and otherwise not so much more of a mental strength imprint than any other negative experience, however generally it is prolonged, so, you're building up quite a lot of strength. It's a really good mental strength imprint, however, it has darkly superior in it. To survive isolation you generally need schizoid and or sociopath, obviously the winner is deep emotional repression and processing dysregulation. Now social engagement rejection don't so much bother you, you're never going to make an embarrassing scene over somebody disliking you. You're not going to be caught doing the reach for friends and looking pathetic, you'll just let them come to you and you're all cool and casual and impressive. But, no matter how well compartmentalized, you're always deeply horrified of the potential deep emotional isolation from those you love. Generally this is impossible, generally if this happens it will only ever happen accidentally, but, if it happens accidentally you know forever this is somebody you will never be able to love again. They trigger the feelings of isolation. No, if it's properly compartmentalized that does not mean pure warm coddle me at all times never once make a mistake, no, it has to be a pretty severe mistake.

To compartmentalize it properly you need to find isolation hurts so much I need it to keep hurting me worse so I can hurt it with it's hurting me, then you have to sort through the fucking brain and look for all of your paranoia options, all of the potentialities within cultural conditioning and other people's awareness of the options within vulnerability inhibition, you have to look through your childhood and deal with things such as "Why don't I get a mommy?"